Small shifts and time. These are the 2 biggest weapons, I believe, that Satan uses against us. When things shift just slightly, if we notice, we think, ‘well that’s not too bad.’ And most times we don’t even notice. This is no more evident to me than if you look back at compulsory educational history. Something I have never done until we started homeschooling. We began homeschooling because the Lord led us there, but since I’ve found a thick book’s worth of reasons we should have done it all along.
When you go back and look at the history of government schools you see they didn’t start out by yanking God out, or speaking directly against His teachings. As a matter of fact those in authority said we need to teach them to read so they can follow God by reading His word. But I believe that was step one to a bigger devised plan that would slowly and subtly change the values and conscience of this nation.
Satan doesn’t come in the form of a scary devil, he comes in the form of “helpful change” or “fulfillment” (sound familiar?). The first compulsory schools were inducted over 300 years ago. That seems like a long time to us, but subtly they have gone from their first philosophy…to educate children so that they could read scripture to, no scripture allowed. From a desire that seemed “good,” to a desire that is no less than wicked. We excuse it because out of urgency we need our kids to learn to read while we do other things. It has so subtly been introduced that we don’t even recognize the evil in it. But with days like last week and the terrible killing of children the evil is seeping out.
Yes, we can tell ourselves that it could have happened anywhere, and that is true. But when we subtly tell God to “stay out,” what can we expect? Is there any other place in this world that Christians would send our young children that daily introduces them to sex, violence, anti-God teachings, idolatry, mental abuse with the authority over them being forbid to use the Lord in correcting? We don’t let them watch R rated movies, and they only last a couple of hours, but we will send them for 8 hours a day for 12 years to watch an R rated life.
Ok, let’s move on from school. Let’s look at marriage. When did marriage go from parents with years of wisdom choosing spouses for their children to “get drunk in Vegas and marry the guy you just met” wisdom? Now I know that arranged marriage sounds horrific to a nation that is all about having their choice be #1 priority. And I’m not saying that we should return to arranged marriages bc that got abused also, but I see a lot of wisdom in it if parents are true followers of Christ.
First of all you don’t enter in with the ridiculous idea that you’ve found the perfect man/woman for you. You don’t quit the second it gets hard or feels uncomfortable…because you expect that from the beginning! You learn early to work through your differences and apply God’s principals to trials (assuming you had wise parents led by God in arranging your spouse). And the only thing to govern your house is God’s teachings, because you have no preconceived notions of what to expect from Mr or Mrs Wonderful. Now all that being said I do believe we could pick our own, if we were raised to value godly qualities and in the realization that marriage doesn’t save you, Jesus does. But the wisdom of godly parents will still far outweigh our own, especially if we are emotionally engaged. The problem today is our overwhelming culture (especially the 12 formidable years thru that R rated life) teaches them subtly that their is an urgency to please self.
My point is that subtly we went from one extreme to another. And the extreme we are in now wrecks families hourly and creates selfishness beyond imagination. And the urgency to marry that “perfect spouse” has priority over wisdom. The subtly of the change makes it so that we can’t even really pinpoint in history where it all changed, yet it changed drastically! It went from God ordained qualities to a big ol’ heaping help of self-service.
You don’t like my thoughts on marriage, look at child raising. When did we go from training them to live godly to training them to be selfish, disrespectful non-empathetic me-pleasers? Oh maybe the subtly in their education helped here. Parents are too busy, too self-involved and too weak because they have already been thru the indoctrination experiment and follow whatever whim seems good to them. See how this all ties in nicely?
What about the very thing we say is our foundation… Christianity? When did we change from a Christianity that stirs sacrifice and service from its deep indwelling of agape love to Me-anity? A faith based on what feels good to me? Again, two extremes and nobody really knows where it started to shift. As a matter of fact you can’t even convince the subscribers of Me-antiy to believe they have embraces heresies! They think it’s the faith of the apostles. Can you imagine how Satan laughs?
My point here is not to change your view on school as much as it is to awaken in you a desire to open your eyes to the changes and take a hard look at what you live for…is it for God’s approval, or your own that gets tampered with through Satan’s lies of fulfillment? And what are you teaching our next generation?
The generation we live in now is apparent all around us. Look at our choice for presidential candidates or any other leadership roles, our values in what we will tolerate for education for our kids (perpetuating all of this), the feel good, easy Me-anity that runs rampant in our churches, the lack of work ethic, the lack of sacrifice, the lack of service to others, the inability to live for something bigger than self. All qualities of the father of lies, none are qualities of Jesus.
So don’t look and think…it’s not that bad, because if you are honest you have to see that it is! And if we want to have “change” we need to change back to the time before we embraced the subtle urgency to only please ourselves. And do the hard work to re-teach the next generation that “easy” and “me” are not what it’s all about, nor will it make you happy or fulfilled.
Calling sin, sin, and pure good old hard work and sacrifice rooted in the true education of God will avail much…anything less is the subtle urgency of Satan.
So I’m just reviewing in my mind how thankful I am that God’s grace has been upon me while we figure our “homeschool rhythm” out. As I am a re-covering perfectionist I was nervous that teaching my children their entire education would trigger a relapse, and I would be educating, but it would not be the good kind.
To begin with I have to say that homeschooling thus far has been one of the best blessings God has given our family! We love it! It has brought us closer together, grown confidence in my kids, allowed us to live…not rush from this activity to that with little time inbetween to slow down and live in the moment (that moment that we will never get again), allowed us to nurture relationships outside our immediate family, allowed me time to nurture my husband, taught us how God spans across all subjects and grown our faith! Wow, and that’s all happened in only about 60 days!!
Yes there will be days (and there already has been) that will make me want to pull my hair out…but honestly I was pulling my hair out way more when they were in public school and I was trying my best to make sure we did all we should do, cleaned all we should clean, served everywhere we could serve, and held tight to the home teaching I needed to do to make sure public school didn’t slip in there and educate them on things untrue or destructive to our faith. I’m so glad God is such a genius! And even more glad that my own humanity is not what fuels this.
I wish I could sing praises to God all day long for all that He has done for me and my family. And when He delivers such blessings as this, I am so humbled and in love! I fail all the time. I lay in bed some nights and wonder if I’m teaching them enough, pushing them to hard or how I will ever teach them algebra!! But then I step back from circumstances and look thru my God glasses and see that I’m not the one running this thing (bc if I was it would already be in the ditch), so I go to sleep, wake up, talk to The Man, get my orders and carry on.
That’s what I keep doing and He continues to be faithful.
I know there will come a day when we have to get a little more structured, spend a lot more time in studies, and plan better…but right now it’s like I was given my kids back. It’s like I’m mom again, not the lady that manages the taxis, cooks and shops for food, the maid, the scheduling assistant, and on an on and on. I’m mom. That’s what I was made for. That’s what He designed me to do. Somewhere in the midst of life we lost the intentionalness of reaching the goal I knew we were supposed to reach. We were being swept by the current and unaware that we were floating out to sea right along with everyone else. And then God very lovingly opened our eyes and we paddled over to the shore, got out of the lazy river and began discovering the joys of being intentional. We are able to put our faith in God first, our family second and everything else falls somewhere behind that. I remember writing answers to “what my priorities are” in bible studies. They were written correctly, but I wasn’t living what I wrote. Now I am, at least most days!
My best days are the ones that I try to teach like Jesus taught. He didn’t plan 30 weeks ahead with visual charts, powerpoint presentations and cue cards. He didn’t compare His planner with all the other homeschool mom blogs and think how inadequate He was. He looked around and saw where the need was. Sometimes the need ran up and begged for help. Sometimes the need lay waiting to see if He would notice. Sometimes He was tired, hungry, thirsty and had too many emails/texts to answer…oops that’s me. But regardless of how He felt or what may have appeared urgent at the moment He used wisdom to “intentionally” line up His priorities with those of the Father and teach the things of real value. He saw the souls that He was teaching, not just the curriculum. Can you feel that moment? The moment you realize the satisfaction of doing what you were meant to do and watching it pay off?
Appropriately enough my worse days are the ones I have an agenda to fill them with curriculum/knowledge and not teach their souls!
This brings me to why I wanted to start this line of journaling. I want to remember to teach their souls not fill them with knowledge. I want our homeschooling to bring glory to God! I want to remember the beauty in watching God correct my family and lead us down a path of awesome blessings. I want to remember that it’s not my hands that bring them goodness, it’s His. I want to reassure myself one day when I re-read this that we did this because God told us to, therefore it’s up to Him to provide what we need. I want to finish reading all those super mom blogs with this one so I know that I’m not damaging our kids bc we don’t have a garden planted yet, haven’t won the noble peace prize, nor do I even have tomorrows lessons planned, but we are doing the will of the Father. He has brought me out of all my other fires; He will deliver me from this one, assuming I go to sleep, wake up, talk to The Man, get my orders and carry on.