Category Archives: My Faith at work

Ok ladies, prepare to be offended…

Let me begin with a couple of disclaimers: 1.) I have no authority to teach a man, therefore, they can keep scrolling (they’re on God’s radar not mine). 2.)I am not talking to the unbelievers…they have never tasted the sweetness of my Saviour through repentance of their wickedness, nor committed their lives to His care, so they aren’t on my radar either. I am talking to all the professing christian women that get burned by my words.

Next, let me tell you that this is coming from a heart of love and confession. Not the kind of love that makes you feel good, but the kind of love that calls you into repentance so that you can experience the full measure of what God has in store for you. Why waste my keyboard? Bc I do desire so many of us to experience more than the small life we have…I want us to live in that place that God is glorified in and our families, have peace and joy overflowing.

Here goes.

Do you know it’s ok not to like someone? Do you know it’s ok to recognize someone is right or wrong? Do you know that you are actually called to examine the fruit of people, and then proceed accordingly? Jesus didn’t like everyone. He recognized and called out those that were wrong and He pointed out the lack of fruit from the hypocrites. He drew lines in the sand…literally. He held people to their word.

It seems the anti-God mantras of today….”can’t we all just get along,” “don’t worry, be happy,” or “some things are better left unsaid,” have processed in our self-protecting brains into…”can’t you just keep truth to yourself and pretend things are perfect so we can all get along and I can live like I want to?” And, “don’t worry, just don’t think and medicate with fake blindness so you don’t notice all the sin around you.” Last one, “some things are hard to say, and you might not like me if I say them so they are easier left unsaid.”

Geez! I am reminded of John the Baptist as I type. I am the voice of the one calling out from the malls, the voice of the one calling out from your kids ballgames, the voice of the one calling out from your ladies nights out, the voice of the one calling out AT CHURCH, the voice of the one calling in your BIBLE STUDIES, the voice of the one calling out in your homes where your children watch every move…”Repent, repent the Kingdom of God is at hand!!”

Ok now we are at the meat of the reason I’m up at 4am typing…have you heard the conversations we are having these days, ladies? I admit I am very bad at small talk. If put in a situation that I have to, I say things like, “so what kind of gum do you chew?” Or, “have you watched any good documentaries lately?” Total uncomfortable silence. I would be better off to say what I’m really thinking, “Do you know Jesus as Lord? If you don’t I’m going to pray right now and ask God to show me how to leave you with the gospel of Christ.” At least the uncomfortable silence would have a good meaning.

And when I put the ball in someone’s else’s court and they ask me something like, “Do you watch the newest TV show ‘Hell’s Angels’?” And I have no idea what they’re talking about but by the sounds of it, it’s just like the rest of the garbage on TV.  At that point I’m stammering to hold on to my “woman chit-chat gene.”  Most times I fail and they move on to someone else and I listen in sadness at the self-indulgent, Christ DIS-honoring talk that plays out.

I love to talk about Jesus, but no one else does!!!  Every time I open up a casual conversation with anything about Jesus, it’s worst than uncomfortable silence…the unbelievers look at me like, “Oh you’re one of them,” and the christians agree with whatever I say just to shut me up.   The christians all know how to “amen” and “hallelujah” at the right times. They know they are supposed to do/think/act/SPEAK like Christ, or at least like they love Him. But they don’t really; at least not as much as they love themselves or the accomplishments of their kids and family. You can’t say the Lord’s name in vain 5 times, tell me you’ve done nothing all week but cater to your kids, you hate your job; and then agree that Jesus is the best thing since sliced bread. If you love SomeONe don’t you want to talk about Him? Absolutely, that’s how I know what you really love. Jesus says, “For the mouth speaks out of that which fills the heart. The good man brings out of his good treasure what is good; and the evil man brings out of his evil treasure what is evil. But I tell you that every careless word that people speak, they shall give an accounting for it in the day of judgment.” (Matthew 12, emphasis mine) Come on girls! You know how to love your kids, but not how to love a Saviour that died to save you from God’s wrath?

Your words come from a process. You think about it, it goes into your heart, you love it, you speak it. Think, desire, do. So I know what you think about and what you love by what you talk about. If you are complaining, you are telling God, He gave you a bad life. If you talking in fear, you are saying God isn’t big enough to handle __(blank)___. If you are putting someone down, you are saying God had to pay more for them than you. If you are talking about the latest worldly line of junk, you are saying I don’t read my bible near enough. Don’t worry my toes are getting squished too. I love to talk about Jesus, but as soon as I see it will be one sided…I defer and begin the same routine as everyone else…complain, worry, put down, distract.

How sad our Saviour must be at this. He conquered death, put a worth on us that we could never deserve, restores our souls, and provides ALL we truly need, and we respond to Him with selfish lives that dishonor everything He did.

I can’t tell you how many times I hear christians saying OMG and the like! Or cuss. These are the easy things to rid our filthy mouths of. If I have to come home and explain to my kids why a “christian” said the Lord’s name in vain, or why they would allow their children to do/say __(blank)__, or why they are always so worldly; then you can bet your kids notice also!! I call all of us into repentance!

Our words as christian women should be to honor Christ! We should proclaim His goodness. We should have fruit to talk about! We should hold each other accountable! We should build others up according to their needs. We should use gracious words of humility and truth. We should be talking about the choices we need to make to raise our children to love Christ and honor Him with their lives. We should be helping one another to see the good in our husbands instead of laughing and tearing them down. I am ashamed of many conversations I’ve taken part in.

If women truly use 25,000 words a day…how much glory could we give our Saviour in just one day? I pray we would choke on every idle word. And I’m not talking about being nice! I’m talking about hard truth when it’s needed. I’m talking about stopping the conversation when it’s getting dark. I’m talking about making others uncomfortable if they continue. I’m talking about a higher calling. Don’t spout christian-ese at church and then complain the rest of the week and expect me to believe you love Jesus. Lip service dishonors Him. Be ye doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving your own selves! (James 1:22) I’m talking about truly helping one another live a life that would fill us with joy, peace and strength that passes all we know.

It’s a hard road to walk alone. It’s not undo-able, but how much farther would we get down the road of growing in Christ if we were truly talking to each other in a way that brought godliness in our lives, instead of filth, fear and ungratefulness? I don’t want to walk around offending people all the time, but then again Jesus did if it was needed and I’m called to be like Him. The bible tells us we can’t travel down the same path unless we are like minded…it’s commanded to set yourselves and your children apart. We can go out into the world, but don’t get to friendly with it. If others refuse to repent and think like Christ, love like Christ and speak like Christ, pray for them…but don’t follow them. It’s ok not to like someone! It’s ok to even walk away from family that is making choices that you can’t be part of bc you love Christ more than them. Do you want your children to choose friends that will help them or hurt them? How will they know how this is done unless you show them the hard truth of how it’s done? None of us want to make others uncomfortable, but that’s how Christ loved you. He was willing to make you uncomfortable in your sin so you would repent of it, bc He loves you.

How many salvations did we inhibit by making Christ look like a hypocrite in our lives? How many christians did we help down the path of sin bc we chose to silently, or vocally, make them believe we were ok with it.

I know in our attention deficit world that most people didn’t read passed the 2 paragraph, but if you are still reading and like me hear God speaking to you about this, answer Him.

First examine your salvation. Are you truly saved? Or did you emotionally “pray this little prayer?” The scripture says, “Test yourselves to see if you are in the faith; examine yourselves! Or do you not recognize this about yourselves, that Jesus Christ is in you– unless indeed you fail the test?” 2 Cor 13:5  If you’ve been saved for anytime do you recognize the following things to any extent in your life?

1-Do you Enjoy Fellowship with God and Christ?
2-Are you Sensitive to Sin in your Life?
3-Do you Obey the Scriptures?
4-Do you Reject this Evil World?
5-Do you Love Christ and eagerly await His Return?
6-Do you see a Decreasing Pattern of Sin in your Life?
7-Do you Love other Christians?
8-Do you Receive Answers to your Prayers?
9-Do you Experience the Ministry of the Holy Spirit?
10-Can you Discern between Spiritual Truth and Error?
11-Have you Suffered on Account of your Faith in Christ?

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Test your faith, John MacArthur


Am I a luke warm christian? Have you put on the white robe of Jesus’ salvation and yet when you look down, you have defaced it so much you can’t see it anymore?


1 – Do Cares & Worries of This Life Dominate Most of Your Thoughts & Conversations?
2 – Do You Practice Sin on a Regular Basis?
3 – Do You “Love” The Things of This World More Than God’s Word?
4 – Are You Too Busy for Jesus? What are Your Priorities?
5 – Do You Use God’s Name In Vain? (‘Oh My G-d?’)
6 – Do You Fail to Pray Earnestly & Pray for the Lost Who Will Spend Eternity in Hell?
7 – Do You Fail to Preach the Gospel on a Regular Basis? OR Do You Hinder Others?
8 – Are You Indifferent About Your Sin? What is Your Attitude?
9 – Do You Seek After Worldly Wealth & Fame vs Seeking First The Kingdom of God?
10-Do You Fail to Obey Jesus, and God’s Word Consistently?

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Am I lukewarm?

Whichever is the case ANSWER HIM NOW. Repent on one side or the other.  Be broken over your sin and pray for His strength, commit to do things His way and receive the blessing this brings OR crumble in brokenness of your sin, repent and tell Him you know He is the only answer. He died for you, rose again and wants to be Lord of your life. Accept His salvation and live it.

How does one trust in Jesus


This would be true change in our world.

God forgive us all!

What brand are you?

What brand are you?

People, people, people…where have we let the devil invade our worth?  Everywhere.  We are of such value, yet we allow Satan to lie to us, rob us, and destroy us.  (I believe God warned us of this…1 Peter 5:8)

Through our lack of accepting value in what God created us to be, we are never fulling the purpose God made for us.  Many never see salvation because they were never taught that our Creator made them, loved them, and valued them.  They will suffer for eternity because a generation of parents failed them.  I have read that ungodly parents are Satan’s best tool and I am sold that that is true.

Then you have those that are born-again yet have accepted the comfort of our culture.  They choose to either hide in the wealth and success, or poverty and tragedy only to pass down to their children that we not victors but rather we will become victims unless we become “successful.”  Their children never see the value their lives have in the plan of their Creator.  Therefore, they too will see Hell or hell on earth as a believer that steadily chooses self over God.

We have believed the lie that seeing our value in Christ is somehow self-exalting.  So we become self-proclaimed martyrs or shuck the idea all together and believe that only our effort gives us value.  These lies have given birth to heretical “christian” theology all over the place.  The problem is the true definition of our value in Christ is not an easy road and so we don’t like to talk about it, much less teach it and therefore we give Satan an easy hole to slip through.

We have GREAT value to Christ, not because we are so special per se, but because we are His creation.  The Mona Lisa would not be near as valuable if I would have painted it.

I recently learned that many stores buy from the same clothing manufacturer, put their label on the clothes and sell them.  So depending on what store you go into, will decide what price you will pay.  Same clothes, same manufacturer, but because of who is claiming them different value.

Can you see where I’m going here?

If you want to strap an evolution tag on you…go right ahead.  They can sell that junk at the discount stores. But I know I was hand-painted, well thought out, designed and appreciated in completion.  Loved even.  That doesn’t mean I’ve done anything, it means The One that designed me did everything.  AND it means I have value.  And what’s even cooler is that He isn’t selling.  Our Manufacturer isn’t a 3rd party, but the Designer, Creator and Owner.  We don’t have to worry about getting lost, stolen, broken…nothing.  He makes us, grows us and at the right time gives us the option to remain His or be sold at the discount stores.  If we choose to remain His then He gives us a job.  He provides for us, protects us, directs us, makes all the tough decisions for us, and loves us like the unique valuables we are.  But if we choose to go to the discount store we can expect just what the clothes in there receive.    Most times they are worn as necessity and when they are no longer usable tossed in the trash to be incinerated.

How sad.  Those wearing the discount store version never took notice at the hand-painted color or the intricate weaving together of the fabric.  They didn’t notice how perfectly they fit.  This is no accident.  Satan is about.

This is the result of a war that we cannot see.  This is why faith is so important.  The evidence of things not seen is all around us, faith is hoping in The Jesus that we cannot see, but have absolute certainty in His title as Christ.

We must receive His tag and we must accept His job if we truly want our children to know a better life than the lies of self-esteem, self-made, or self-established.  No one self-(fill in the blank) is valued as much as the one that is created by an Amazing Creator, cared for, and put on display as a beautiful work of art!  Nor are they ever as fulfilled.  Do you want your children to live on the teeter-totter of happiness and despair?  Or do you want them to live fulfilled in the Hand of One that can and will do what He says.  And even if the outside doesn’t take on our idea of a masterpiece…fortunately there is One that knows far more than we, and He can compose them into such that we could never know.  That my friend equals peace…for you and them.

How much would you pay to make sure all your children’s needs are met and they are completely peaceful all their days?  I know Someone that paid with His life, and I pray you know Him too.  More so, I pray your children know Him and accept His value for them.  

I know Who created you…but I ask what brand are you?

Humble Passion

Humble Passion

As I am preparing for this summer’s church camp, I am drawn to look at the past church camps for reference on what is good…what needs improving…what I did wrong…and how to help others learn from my errors and triumphs.  As I lay sleepless doing this and asking God to show me what He sees in this, I begin to hear the words, “humble passion” over and over in my head.  And as I break each word down in my usual analyzing way, I catch it!!

Let me beckon all of you teachers of Christ to learn these words.  To adopt them as your goal.  No long look to the number of people you have led to Christ as a measuring stick, but how many did you show humble passion to?

First we must determine what we are humbly passionate about or we could get real squirrely real quick.  I’m talking about humble passion for a Jesus that would pick me up out of a gutter and love me with a tenderness I have never known.  I’m talking about a humble passion for a Savior that said, I will pay whatever price I must to have you…and did.  I’m talking about humble passion for a Lord that will watch me abuse the very grace He provides and still love me enough to correct me.  A humble passion for a Father that reminds me He values me just because I exist.  A humble passion for a conglomeration of words that never fail me and always guide me in the right direction.  A humble passion to please and love the most amazing God/Lord/Savior/Father anyone could ask for.

Ok now that we are square on what we are humbly passionate about let me now paint you a picture of that humble passion in action.  These two little words demand a balance that is not easily acquired.  When I teach or even speak I want to show the passion that makes my skin explode off of me…or maybe I should say my “fig leaf” explode off of me (see Genesis 3:7).  I want to be so authentic and vulnerable that it demands attention.  Yet I also desire the humility that can take decades to carve into my soul.  So humble that I know that the passion that leads me to action and demands attention; is NONE of me, and all of Him.  So humble that when one thing goes right I immediately praise and thank my Lord for the great power it took to use me as a facilitator of this work!

I dare you to change your goal in teaching God’s Word from how many are saved…to how many saw humble passion for God in me?  How many were not drawn to my intellect or even love; but saw the love of a Savior and the Mind of infinite wisdom?

You see we have gotten it all wrong in our quest for the American Dream.  The American Dream builds little kingdoms for ourselves.  The American Dream brings glory to my results.  How successful I am in the eyes of men become my value.  Even in ministry.  How sad.

My American Dream is that I could live humbly passionate for Christ.  I will not seek to be a martyr, nor to lead X amount to Christ.  I will not always look like the good Christian woman…because sometimes mere men cannot see my accomplishments.  I won’t often be accepted because neither was Jesus.  But my hope, my dream, my longing is to love Him with a humble passion that cannot be denied.  And when I fall to my face in His amazing presence, He will say, “Rise my good and faithful slave, you have done well and I am pleased.”

I pray teachers of The Word, this too is your goal.  And with transparent vulnerability we could love each other thru the hurt this brings.  And encourage each other to continue being humbly passionate…yes excited…bursting…and energetic to allow God to be seen in our stead.

Only by His grace.


The best way to teach…

The best way to teach…

I found this in one of the blogs I follow.  I wish I could remember where so I could give them proper credit.

Anyway I think it is an awesome assessment for anyone teaching.  And not just teaching school, but teaching their kids, teaching at church, or simply giving counsel.

Use it to study, pray the verses and hang it somewhere to remind you in those teachable moments we are to point to Jesus for their correction (allow their hearts to be changed), not punish out of frustration (temporarily stop the behavior).  *note to self*

How to teach like Jesus

I find 2 things in my roles as teacher, #1-the best way to learn is teach, and #2-teaching is a gift, use it wisely.

Happy teaching!!!

Christian Maturity

Christian Maturity

This is a great teaching on Christian maturity.  I think this is one area that we not only fail so many times at, but most that call themselves Christians, don’t even desire to seek and fulfill!  A testimony of that is the USA.  Mature Christians would have more wisdom than what our country shows.

I pray I never lose my desire to run the race.

Marks of Christian Maturity, Philippians

Subtly and Urgently

Subtly and Urgently


Small shifts and time.  These are the 2 biggest weapons, I believe, that Satan uses against us.  When things shift just slightly, if we notice, we think, ‘well that’s not too bad.’  And most times we don’t even notice.  This is no more evident to me than if you look back at compulsory educational history.  Something I have never done until we started homeschooling.  We began homeschooling because the Lord led us there, but since I’ve found a thick book’s worth of reasons we should have done it all along.

When you go back and look at the history of government schools you see they didn’t start out by yanking God out, or speaking directly against His teachings. As a matter of fact those in authority said we need to teach them to read so they can follow God by reading His word.  But I believe that was step one to a bigger devised plan that would slowly and subtly change the values and conscience of this nation.

Satan doesn’t come in the form of a scary devil, he comes in the form of “helpful change” or “fulfillment” (sound familiar?).   The first compulsory schools were inducted over 300 years ago.  That seems like a long time to us, but subtly they have gone from their first philosophy…to educate children so that they could read scripture to, no scripture allowed.  From a desire that seemed “good,” to a desire that is no less than wicked.  We excuse it because out of urgency we need our kids to learn to read while we do other things.  It has so subtly been introduced that we don’t even recognize the evil in it.  But with days like last week and the terrible killing of children the evil is seeping out.

Yes, we can tell ourselves that it could have happened anywhere, and that is true.  But when we subtly tell God to “stay out,” what can we expect?   Is there any other place in this world that Christians would send our young children that daily introduces them to sex, violence, anti-God teachings, idolatry, mental abuse with the authority over them being forbid to use the Lord in correcting?  We don’t let them watch R rated movies, and they only last a couple of hours, but we will send them for 8 hours a day for 12 years to watch an R rated life.

Ok, let’s move on from school.  Let’s look at marriage.  When did marriage go from parents with years of wisdom choosing spouses for their children to “get drunk in Vegas and marry the guy you just met” wisdom?  Now I know that arranged marriage sounds horrific to a nation that is all about having their choice be #1 priority.  And I’m not saying that we should return to arranged marriages bc that got abused also, but I see a lot of wisdom in it if parents are true followers of Christ.

First of all you don’t enter in with the ridiculous idea that you’ve found the perfect man/woman for you.  You don’t quit the second it gets hard or feels uncomfortable…because you expect that from the beginning!  You learn early to work through your differences and apply God’s principals to trials (assuming you had wise parents led by God in arranging your spouse).  And the only thing to govern your house is God’s teachings, because you have no preconceived notions of what to expect from Mr or Mrs Wonderful.  Now all that being said I do believe we could pick our own, if we were raised to value godly qualities and in the realization that marriage doesn’t save you, Jesus does.  But the wisdom of godly parents will still far outweigh our own, especially if we are emotionally engaged.   The problem today is our overwhelming culture (especially the 12 formidable years thru that R rated life) teaches them subtly that their is an urgency to please self.

My point is that subtly we went from one extreme to another.  And the extreme we are in now wrecks families hourly and creates selfishness beyond imagination.  And the urgency to marry that “perfect spouse” has priority over wisdom.  The subtly of the change makes it so that we can’t even really pinpoint in history where it all changed, yet it changed drastically!  It went from God ordained qualities to a big ol’ heaping help of self-service.

You don’t like my thoughts on marriage, look at child raising.  When did we go from training them to live godly to training them to be selfish, disrespectful  non-empathetic me-pleasers?  Oh maybe the subtly in their education helped here.  Parents are too busy, too self-involved and too weak because they have already been thru the indoctrination experiment and follow whatever whim seems good to them.  See how this all ties in nicely?

What about the very thing we say is our foundation… Christianity?  When did we change from a Christianity that stirs sacrifice and service from its deep indwelling of agape love to Me-anity?  A faith based on what feels good to me?  Again, two extremes and nobody really knows where it started to shift.  As a matter of fact you can’t even convince the subscribers of Me-antiy to believe they have embraces heresies!  They think it’s the faith of the apostles.  Can you imagine how Satan laughs?

My point here is not to change your view on school as much as it is to awaken in you a desire to open your eyes to the changes and take a hard look at what you live for…is it for God’s approval, or your own that gets tampered with through Satan’s lies of fulfillment?  And what are you teaching our next generation?

The generation we live in now is apparent all around us.  Look at our choice for presidential candidates or any other leadership roles, our values in what we will tolerate for education for our kids (perpetuating all of this), the feel good, easy Me-anity that runs rampant in our churches, the lack of work ethic, the lack of sacrifice, the lack of service to others, the inability to live for something bigger than self.  All qualities of the father of lies, none are qualities of Jesus.

So don’t look and think…it’s not that bad, because if you are honest you have to see that it is!  And if we want to have “change” we need to change back to the time before we embraced the subtle urgency to only please ourselves.  And do the hard work to re-teach the next generation that “easy” and “me” are not what it’s all about, nor will it make you happy or fulfilled. 

Calling sin, sin, and pure good old hard work and sacrifice rooted in the true education of God will avail much…anything less is the subtle urgency of Satan.

Ladies Study


Ok I have to share what has been happening to me as I’ve been praying for a study:

First, the naturally inclined Traci immediately took over and… need I say more?  After I finished exhausting and frustrating myself, I repented and asked the Lord to give me the patience to wait on Him and thanked Him for the blessing it would be when He revealed HIS will for us.  And 2 days later without any exhaustion or frustration on my part, I was reading my daily bible reading and it happened to be Titus chapter 2.  This passage has been kinda stuck in my head for a few months.  I just figured it’s bc it is such a key passage for Christian living.  As I was reading, a casual thought just kinda passed thru my little mind that it would be really cool if we could study that.  This thought wouldn’t leave me.  So I just googled- Titus 2 women’s bible study.  As I scrolled down at the results I was almost knocked over.  The ONLY one that came up was one by Martha Peace.  Now I need to give some history about me and Martha Peace so that you can see why this is such a big deal.  About 2ish years ago, I was looking for yet another marriage book and ran across ‘The Excellent Wife‘ by Martha Peace on audio.  I downloaded it  and a couple of others.  It took a while before I got around to listening to the Martha Peace book, but once I did I was blown away!!  She used so much scripture and taught so differently than anything I had ever known.  She didn’t teach things to make me feel good, or things that sounded good but you had no idea how to implement them.  She taught things God said.  One I struggled with a lot was, it doesn’t really matter if I think my husband’s following God or not, my duty was to be kind and respond to him in a gentle way.  I didn’t think it possible until I had it right in front of me with the choice staring at me.  Thru much prayer and surrender I said, “Ok Jesus You will almost have to form my words for me and hold my attitude with Your hand, but I desire to do it Your way.”  And I did it….or rather He did it.  It changed something.  Slowly but surely “the dance” that Jeff and I had been doing became more fluid and fulfilling.  I have struggled with what a good wife is all my grown life I think.  And thru this book and God’s grace I was just beginning to really know what that was.  I tell you all of that to let you see that Martha Peace’s teachings were so instrumental in the marriage I have today, I feel she is trustworthy enough to study.   AND I don’t think it was a coincidence that she was the only one to have a study on the passage that has been on my mind for some time.   It isn’t a DVD study however.  It has some audio to go with it.  I ordered the book and the audio…the book was only like $10.   I don’t have it yet but I am anxiously awaiting it.  I am including a link for you to go check it out yourself.  I pray we all come together in choosing a study and it blesses us with growth in our womanhood!!  Read Titus 2 and then go look at this and see what you think?