Monthly Archives: April 2012

In awe…


I sit here in awe of the faith building, kingdom adding, miracles of God that He has shown me in the last few months.  Sometimes I am in this place where I pray that the Lord would come back to save His sons and daughters of pain, and also those children that would be safe because they are not yet accountable.  The view from human eyes looks dim, so we focus there and forget how powerful God is.  I see broken families that I pray desperately for, sisters and brothers that fall away from their faith, pain come to those that are following their faith, children with open hearts squashed by worldly parents, physical illness hold the elderly in a prison, salvation offered and rejected and I wonder…when will You come?  When will You stop the evilness that runs wild here?  Selfishly I wonder when He will stop my pain?  My children’s pain?  My husband’s?  Oh but how joyful I am that I am not in control, nor do I make those decisions.  Because my blindness is His wisdom!  He has plans, He has people to make His children, He has lives to grow His love inside, He still has wounds to heal for some, and wounds to inflict on others so that they might grow in His grace.  He has a Kingdom to run, I have NO idea the lengths or depths of how that is done.  What I do know is this when we are faithful He will bring fruit.  And that fruit is worth the pain suffered.

Just 2 days ago I was blessed to have the Lord show up in the lives of 12 little girls and 2 big girls.  The last day of GWAP for this year was a MIGHTY ONE!!  I was prayed up, and I thought, prepared and expecting the Lord Almighty to show …and show up big, but my little mind had no idea!!!  We started class and had another awesome time of questions and answers.  And in the Sr. class they were big people questions…such as, ‘what is worldliness?’  ‘how do we not sin?’  ‘what does propitiation mean?’  ‘how does showing too much skin lead to impurity?’  and on and on.  I felt that we discussed some real “meat.”  Then it was over to the big church to worship and praise God with our voices.  Something about that many girls gathered at the altar of God singing about how His great name heals all, saves all and loves all is indescribable!!  As we sang I told them verses to apply to the songs so that they could relate that we weren’t just singing, we were praising and celebrating the goodness of God.

Now God had impressed on me that He was gonna do something big here, but what I discovered was that big to me and BIG TO HIM are two different things!!  I should back up a week.  I had two girls tell me the week before that they asked Jesus into their hearts at home…well I didn’t have the chance to talk to them one on one before they had to leave that week.  So I had been preparing to talk to them 1st, before class started.  I did, and really felt that these girls sincerely received Christ and were now God’s children.   That was my idea of big.  Here’s God’s:  As we were singing and praising girl after girl began to be stirred, then convicted and when it was all said and done 3 more girls surrendered to Christ and ALL of them were convicted and crying about something.  Some were too young to understand the conviction, some didn’t have the knowledge to apply to it, some were too scared to receive it, for some they just didn’t have words…but all were moved by the mighty hand of God!!   Including their 2 big girl teachers!!  My sister-in-Christ Eryn and I were speechless.  We were overwhelmed.

I had promised a pizza party after our worship and as I drove across the street to buy the pizza I had waiting, I was shaking and couldn’t put 2 sentences together because God’s bigness is more than we humans can handle.  We just can’t get it.  As much love as I feel for God and as much reverence as I feel for God I cannot begin to come close to giving Him what He deserves.  I can’t imagine being in His presence.  I can’t imagine His glory.  And I can’t imagine how overtaken I will be just to be in heaven with Him.

Sometimes I think our over-valued egos lead us to think we are “something.”  Let me be the first to repent right now…with the cross in the background and His work in my life in the foreground, I am so little…so small and yet still sooooo loved.   I marvel at how a God so big, so powerful, so important and so busy has time to hear the tearful, small voice of a wife/mother/teacher/friend and follower of His Son beg for His help to tend her flock.  Beg for Him to cover her mistakes.  Beg for Him to change her impurities so that she can serve Him more wholly.  Beg for Him to provide what she absolutely does not derserve…and then deliver results like I saw Friday.

In the voice of Bill and Ted…”I AM SO NOT WORTHY!”

Thank You Father for hearing me, acting on my behalf and the behalf of those children.  Thank You Father for taking the time to love me and include me in things that I could never do myself.  Thank You Father for saving eternity for 5 little girls and encouraging 2 big girls to keep fighting, praying and loving…no matter how dim it might seem.

Hallelujah!!  Hallelujah!!  Hallelujah!!!!

To my dear wild at heart Jaylee-


Wild at Heart      

by Traci Danker

She sits staring into the open sky,

She prays one day she’ll see him from up high,

The wild stallion that glows with strength,

The mane his glory and the tail; such length,

To see his eyes up close would scare,

But only a glimpse of his soul that cares,

His herd, his pride, his purpose in life,

To lead, not follow nor cause great strife,

The Lord gave him beauty, power, and heart,

Determines his end and also his start,

The wind in his face; he’ll always be free,

To dance in the meadows below Calvary.

Praise and Worship Lyrics


Praise song lyrics multipleWe are going to some more praise and worship this Friday and I will have the lyrics at church, but I thought if anyone wanted what I had I would post them here so you could print them off.  I am also sending 2 CD’s full of awsome music to keep them plugged in this summer!

Music can open the heart…what better than to input Jesus into an open heart!!

(Click here for several, or on the pics for those specific songs.)

Praise song lyrics multiple

Ladies retreat, gold…not pink.

Ladies retreat, gold…not pink.

Click for theme song…   Beautiful Things

So this last weekend was my annual hiatus from daily life…the ladies retreat.  This is my third year to go and my third time to be altered.  The first year you could read about under my
“The Boots,” blog post.  It rearranged my mind, heart and focus.  The Lord brought me to my knees so that He could lovingly reach down and pick me up into His arms!  I wish I could on about it, bc I will never forget how awesome the Lord shined into my brokeness…but I have a dinner in the crock pot that would waste if I took the time, so onto this years treasure.

I have learned by now to just expect God to meet me in this place and break me.  In the last 2 years I have had one of many “come to Jesus meetings” there.  This year I planned on asking for it!  Yes a “come to Jesus meeting” usually hurts, but I’ve been taught by my Master that it always ends good.  So I began praying a couple of weeks before for my Lord to get me ready and meet me there with yet another reckoning.  Last year He taught me about how sufficient His grace is; therefore, I need not continue to try to control…control….control!  We will call year one-the boot kick, year two -grace not trac (short for traci…that’s me in case you didn’t pick up on my wittiness), and let’s name year three -square 2.  The Lord showed me that I have moved thru square 1 and now He’s talking to me about what is in square 2!  I liked it!  I didn’t need a reckoning this year bc I’m growing!!  Wow!  Did I say I like it?  As much as I am eternally grateful for the reckonings that He used to “chisel” off the junk, I am really encouraged that I surrendered myself to Him this year and He said, “You’re doing alright kid!  I just want to let you know I have some plans and I want you to be talking to Me about them A LOT!!!”  He did remind me of the spiritual warfare that is going on around me and that if I intend on winning those in this lifetime, I better see it for the fight that it is and get in my fighting stance…aka my knees!  I better listen hard and step only when told to, bc as I may now be ready for some field action…I am also still very inadequate without my Commanding Officer giving me step by step orders.  Also I need power that I do not possess in order to win the fight for the flocks that He has me in charge of.  It’s not just my life on the line…I have a slew of people.  And I need to see this fight for what it is.  For some it is their success and crowns from this life, for others losing means eternal damnation….neither of these are powder puff decisions; therefore they do not require powder puff christianity.  In other words, I better not be harboring any Joel Olsteen, “Your best life now,” bullcrap…I better be ready to get dirty, get hurt and be tired.  But also ready to watch the Master rain victory down on those that desperately need Him.  A treasure full of  blessing is what I believe Paul would call that!

I sit here now with great anticipation, but also some human fear.  Will I be strong enough to hold tight to the Lord and wise enough to see the attacks when they come, not once I am in the midst of them?  Am I faithful enough to do what He asks?  Am I selfless enough to sacrafice?  Am I dilligent enough to perservere?  Am I humble enough to stay usable?  I have so much more on the line now.   The truth is I am none of those things unless I take one day at a time…one quiet time at a time…one prayer at a time and one God ordered step at a time.  And as much as I’d like to say I’ve learned that lesson so, “I’ve got this.”  I will fail somewhere, sometime, somehow.  But because my God is more faithful than I…I can count on Him to discipline those He loves, encourage pure hearts, and give rest to the weary.  I can trust that, “He’s got this.”

My prayer is not only that I will endure, but that I will have my prayer warriors adding to my strength, my mentors holding me accountable, and my God making beautiful things out of us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today is the day the Lord hath made…

Today is the day the Lord hath made…

Yes rejoice and be glad in it.

Hallelujah!!  Hallelujah!!!!  He is risen!

Today please read the account of the 3rd day to your family.  Let the power in God’s word explode your heart with gratefulness.  Let His will be your will today.  Let His love, mercy, grace and truth wash over you like a waterfall.  Share it.  Know it.  Keep it.

I pray for all those circumstances that surround me to be set aside for at least this one day, so that I may be full of His joy.  And from this one day, I pray it increases as the mustard tree so that everyday is a day that I realize the Lord hath made and I can rejoice and be glad in it.

Happy Easter…Happy Resurrection Sunday!  May God bless you in a way that you never expected, in a way that is eternal and in a way that will cause you to glorify Him.

Praise the Lord.

Short children’s version:

A good story about how bunnies and eggs got mixed in with a dying Savior that rose again so that we may have eternal life:

A biblical account of Christ’s death and resuurection: